So, in tradition of having important character decisions solved by other people, I bring you this poll.

Let's face it - I am not a good fighter, being a champ of the Serenguard proves only how much screwed up this guild is. Probably the worst "pro" fighter in Lusternia, pro being those who dedicate time and effort and have solid (character) skills.

What's worst though is how pissed I get after dying. The answer is - royally. Especially when I lose a level and realise how many hours of mindless clicking on my "swing target" macro button will it take to get it back. Double so for losing defenses which cost me power. But these reasons aside, I came to a conclusion that it makes it, well, not worth it. That I get so pissed when losing out-of-arena (inside too, albeit to a much smaller extent), that it stops being fun. And we play this game for fun.

The alternative - to become a friggin' pacifist, is out of question. First, it ruins my RP. Second, I did not spend so much effort into improving my system to throw this all away. Third, I play Lusternia for several reasons, and combat is one of them. So, the best I could do at this area is to move out only to defensive combat. Repelling raiders, etc. But here is the catch - we all know Lusternia is so immersive that you become genuinely interested in your city/commune's well being. And resorting only to defense is not enough in many cases, no matter does it mean getting farmers from Acknor or killing some Daughters of the Night so that Serenwilde can win the next battle of Faethorn.
Ah, forgot to add - I can only wait to see faces of some Serens who will ask in little kiddy voices "Aerenna, why aren't you getting the miners?" or "Waah, we are going to lose Faethorn again!". But compared to other problems, this one does not exist. As far as surprising it may sound, I have yet to show ICly what it is to act in a VERY mean way.

Taking a break for me is not possible. I curse my weak will, but each time I go away, I come back. The last time I have sworn to take a big break, I was back within a week. The best I could do here is to delete my character - but I know I would regret it. I do not feel like repeating the genuine interest part, but here it applies as well.


So, here are my choices. I can try to swallow it and become better a fighter, which might require more effort than should be spent on a hobby before it becomes unhealthy, OR I should devote myself only to defensive combat, stagnating or waiting for some impossible change to suddenly make warriors overpowered (read: envoys), focusing on something else in the mean time (recently tried to look for a partner for Aerenna, although the chances are slim knowing how many people will find it extremely awkward to have a fiancee who is ICly a woman but OOCly a guy), OR quit Lusternia. Permamently.

These ones are not options: switching to another guild or org (doesn't put the problem away), taking a small break. I tried taking small breaks, didn't work.


And finally, an addendum. I enjoy Lusternia. If I didn't, I wouldn't be here. It's just fighting and my skills in that area that irk me. Abandoning isn't easy though, like drugs.

Well...I get pissed off by dying too, so I guess I can help you a little there.
Ash usually has short spans of very active combat broken by long spans of just bashing and defending, while RPing and just talking to friends and all. I must say I enjoy that greatly, since I usually bash back one death on prime pretty fast, and even praying can be bashed up in two or three days. *shrug* I admit I suck at fighting without regular training, but so be it, I don't mind losing to strong fighters like Amaru, Daevos, Murphy or Diamante, while I can usually just shrug the weaker ones attacks thanks to my level, and either just walk away or kill them myself without too much thinking. (Burstmacro, Staffmacro. <.< >.>)
Well, to summ it up....I'd say you should concentrate on bashing a bit more, and less on doing offensive stuff that can get you killed. The Champhelm gives a nice boost to bashing too. Though I guess not everyone likes bashing as much as I do.

I'm not quite sure what you should do, so I picked other, but I know that you should never delete your charactor, even if you feel that you never-ever-ever want to see Lusternia again, you might, in a few months/years want to come back, and regret giving up a charactor with skills/levels/history/ect.

Edit:I got burned out awhile back, the best thing to do is find something extremely addicting to take your mind off of Lusternia for awhile, you'll come back in a month fresh. Alternatively, I find making novice alts is soothing, gaining 20-30 levels in 3 hours, killing everything in 1-2 hits, it's nice. Best of all, no one expects anything from you when you are a novice, you are expected to ask quests, and perhaps you will have some as you'll most likely be in a new nation, you can settle into a differant RP for awhile and it feels like a vacation.

One thing I've learned is that you shouldn't feel like you -have- to do things in Lusternia all of the time. You can fight, but at the same time don't feel like you're letting everyone down if you don't. Remember you have a commune -full- of people who can help out. I voted for the second one, but I would really say it's a mix of the first/second. You can work on improving while still focusing on other things and not fighting all of the time.

I did not mean to upset you, if what I did earlier was what prompted you to post this thread. Anyway, you should learn to get better if you enjoy fighting. Although, my own experience is that you will die and lose many many times before you become good. Even then, there will always be somebody better than you. Just don't mind so much about losing, it's just a game!

As for Serenwilders asking in kiddies voice, just tell them to shut up. Narsrim and Munsia had been running the show for too long that they don't know what to do anymore when the dynamic duo are no longer around.

RP-wise, don't bother listen to all the rp-trolls out there. It's your character and you can do whatever you want. Reincarnate, change citizenship, guild-hop etc, just anything to make the game more fun to you. They can't fight like you so they nit-pick every little detail to make themselves feel superior. No one has the right to tell you what you can or cannot do with your rp, unless, of course, it is from the admin.

I thought Narsrim and I were the dynamic duo.

Hrm...

Narsrim + Munsia = Munsrim

Narsrim + Tuek = Tuna? Turim?

Doesn't have the same ring to it...

Yeah.

Then you QUIT.

Cuber-

When you think you can't improve anymore then you won't, it's as simple as that. I've fought you when you first started out as a Moondancer and then later as a Serenguard. Our fights went from 30 seconds to about 5 minutes now, that's a huge improvement. I'm not really sure what other tips to give you beside from keep practicing if you want to become better. When I first started out on Lusternia I died at least 5 times a day whenever Celest was being raided and when I wasn't dying outside I was dying in the arena from training.