You know. Here's what I hate most. I hate people who take advantage of the fact that I try to be there for people. I try and make people's days a little brighter, and I HATE people who just latch on and suck me into their lives, and then when they see I'm having a good damned day for once, they have to go out of their way to message me with a long, stupid speech about how hollow and empty and depressed and useless they are and how no one loves them, and try to push guilt onto me if I tell them that I'm not there as a toy to feed their self-inflicted depression. I hate people who have to take advantage of me being nice to them. I hate all the names I get called when I tell them I can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. I hate people shouting that there is no way I care about them if I'm going to walk away from this situation right now because for my sake, I need ONE GOOD DAY for ONCE. Just once. One time I would like a good day, and for someone to care about -me- enough to GRANT ME THAT DAY WITHOUT MAKING ME FEEL GUILTY FOR CARING ABOUT THEM. Is that too selfish? It sucks and I hate it. I suppose I could always become a cruel and heartless psychopath, would that be better? Vampire people, leave me alone. I'm tapped.

EDIT: I'm going to go hug my cuddly creature. A plush dog that I named Alexander...had him since I was 8, snuggled him every night since...13 years of snuggly comfort!

I sort of know what your going through, just talk to Shishi! He has lots of compliments for you (he's even in glomdoring again) though he still thinks of you as the little elfen barely out of novicehood sitting with him in the aetherplex...

Jeez, little elfen? Gah, when was that? When I was a Seren? Sheesh...that's been...months. IRL months. That was...July or August. Time doth fly...

But o'course, Shishi's always been the big furry igasho tree on which to climb, and always someone who listens and doesn't judge. Wish everyone could be that way...

The giant orca of cuddliness would be exactly what it sounds like. It's a four foot long (or more, never measured) stuffed orca from Ikea that my brother got me for my 19th birthday because he knows I'm a huge fan of marine mammals. It is soft, fluffy, and has much sentimental value, what with me being off at college and only talking to my brother maybe once a day instead of all the time (yes, we are very close siblings. Shared a room for 15 some-odd years despite having the option of separate rooms).

A four-FOOT long stuffed orca?

That is AWESOME. Now I want one.

Just ranting about my last month here.
First my laptops monitor dies.
Then my cars engine sorta just stops working.
Then my TV set decides to perish.
Then I get sick and have to lie in bet for a week.

Woohoo. Can't really say things are looking up again either, but oh well. I am sure as long as I stay relaxed, nothing is gonna piss me off.

If you're like me, you'd punch stuff to fix it. It's how I repaired my mom's 20 yo+ fridge when I was in High School - it wasn't working for two days, then I punched its sides, it made funny noises, then it started to work again - and is still working to this very day amazingly. And then, there are just things in life you just shouldn't punch to fix, like a little brother who is twice your size and might.

Ramblings aside, a very belated "welcome back" Ashy. *huggles* And sorry folks, no ranting from me today! Except that I can't play, but I can bug you all on the forums!

I hope you die and go to hell.

Tired of people associating "snuggly" with "stupid", especially when people believe that's who I am as a player. I'm not claiming to be the brightest star in the sky, but yeah. Heh. Thanks a lot...

I have my own plans and reasons for Gwyne's actions... but it really peevs me when people treat me that way out of the game. Get over yourselves Get to know me first before you start talking crap.