He wasn't joking, considering he continued with it after I lost my temper and continued shouting and insulting me well after we got home and for the rest of the night.

Also, I forgot to mention. The reason that he's been treating me like absolute lately is because I'm moving out in 3 and a half months for university.

Oh I know how you feel Diamondais.

I was hospitalized at the age of fourteen-fifteen for depression in behind closed doors.

Last summer when I first begun to discuss moving out my mother got upset - until I finally was able to move, she would repeatedly, if I was late or had not done the cooking/washing for her when she came home, threaten me with 'putting me back into the hospital since I am clearly unable to take care of myself'.

Dear relatives sometimes get upset with their (especially) daughters growing up.

EDIT: Uh I did not mean I KNOW how you feel, it is just that I can relate to it someway. Much strength to you there, your grampa will see the that what you do is right EVENTUALLY. He loves you somewhere deep in the core.

Uh oh... I took a unit near the building where I work and I am moving out 3 days from now. I haven't told anyone in the house yet.
I wonder how they will react... :jigan smiley:

And Penna,
I don't know you personally but meh... that sucks. I hope everything in your life gets better soon.




aaand... infectious desease, how I abhor thee.

A bunch of smoke nearby and not knowing if it's a forest fire or not. If it is, I want to be prepared to leave, if it isn't, SOMEONE should have been notified so people don't freak out.

EDIT: Turns out it was a controlled burn but no one was alerted to it. Idiots.

Urge to kill someone....rising.
I need a punching bag, I could've used it today, would've spared me hitting a tree several times.

Two weeks ago, I went to a conference at another college. It was great! The group of people we went with had a blast, and we all became really close friends.

The honeymoon was over when we got back to our own college. Two people in the group buckled under the pressure of coming home to our old issues after such an incredible weekend and the person I was getting close to decided my ex was better for him.

I want our conference back.

Sigh, my studies seem neverending at the moment

I had hoped to be on a Borg-crewmember of assignments from the current block of maths work by now. However, I was unsure of my answer for one of the assignment questions on eigenvalues, eigenvectors and systems of differential equations. The course material was no help at all. I then asked 3 science lecturers where I work and all three ran away citing memory loss, age and lack of time as excuses for not being able to help me. So the whole damn assignment was delayed while I faffed around rechecking my answer, only to finally find out at the tutorial yesterday that what I had done was correct. *flop* The end of my French class is approaching, which is good in that it will free up Thursday evenings once it's finished, but bad because there is some type of assessment in the last lesson and I've had very little time to practice my French outside of class! Also, Dell warranty service sucks, I got in early to work yesterday (9am, I mean come on!?!) because I was told that the Engineer would be here first thing, but nooo, he finally turned up at 12... *sigh* I'd hide in the server room and nap if it wasn't so cold in there with the A/C

I'm watching the sun come up and haven't slept since it went down because the rest of my academic work is due TODAY or I don't graduate in two days.

Well get it done! You can do it



Rant: I just woke up to do laundry, but decided I'd have a bowl of cereal before I lugged all my to the laundromat. APPARENTLY, one of the two room mates who I was living with the past four months packed my dishes with their stuff when they moved out yesterday!

Don't get me wrong, it was all Wal-Mart crap, but I really liked those huge bowls, could fit 7-8 oz of pasta in them

Those two are going to get angry phone calls as soon as I can find my charger

adijaisdfjaiofdas.

I got a 69/100. On a Geometry test.

That's my lowest test grade I've ever gotten in my life, and I'm in some semi-tranquil balance between rage and emo depression over it. Call me a perfectionist or something, I guess? It ticks me off to no end. Yes, there's an opportunity to redo the test, but this is also the very first redo I've ever had in my life. I'm usually referred to as the 'smart, quiet kid' in every class that people always turn to and ask questions. I'm not supposed to be getting a buggering D!!

It's one little test, but it makes me feel absolutely TERRIBLE. The environment of that class in general was really dropping my grade in it, and I was actually starting to do my homework and get back on track when THIS comes along. Talk about demotivation! If I don't get a high enough grade in this class, I might not be able to pull my GPA up to the 3.7 I'm wanting!

Drunken rant:

First: I lost a friend. Literally lost him. His car stands outside my house, and me, him and 6 other mates went and got deaddrunk, and we went home in small groups. I was the last one to go home, and I nearly had to crawl. But he...just like, disappeared. I know he drove to another chica I know to a club after I went home, but there he..disappeared too. Meh.

Second: I hate not knowing the names for the numbers I save. I have numbers with names attached like "Barchick" and "toiletchick", and whenever they message me or call me, I have to avoid using a name and find it out a different way. Uck



Related Rave:
Vodka makes no hangover if you drink enough of it!

Drink Absolut and you'll know the very definition of hangover.

A month and a half containing the ACT, SAT, 4 APs, and 3 SAT 2s, and it's only half way over.

To make long story short, my wife is stuck in Texas, about 600+ miles away, with no money and no way to GET her money, because I have none either. She had to go back for a funeral, a cousin and his two small daughters were in a car accident, and the funeral is monday. My check this week was JUST enough for rent and 26$ in groceries for the week.

With my 4 year old son, with her

Hmm I was under the impression all this time you were still in high school! (since you brought up GPA it seemed like you're in post-secondary now). And strange, a 69 counts as a C+ here Just try even harder for the next one, it's totally possible... I've been able to get A-'s in classes where my tests were C's and B's. But I know how it feels when you try and then don't do as well as you hoped... (mutters about studying a whole entire week for a dumb biology exam)

Absolut's not bad, Cuban attempts at Vodka. Ouchie. Oly way to avoid it I found, keep drinking straight through that week.

(The plane ride was not fun, thank god I was asleep most of it)

I tried it yesterday and boy, it tastes like crap. :S
I love buffalo gras vodka. If you mix it with apple juice, for example, it tastes like applestrudle. And pure, it tastes awesome too!

1. I've had some problems with my ankle for about a week now, it's been hard for me to walk at times but at other times theres no problem with it whatsoever. Nothing can be found wrong with it, what the hell? :/

2. Chemistry grade. 49/100. Ouch. Not just fail, -epic- fail. Looks like I'm not becoming a Senior after the end of this school year. It's okay, not like I needed to graduate any time soon anyway! Afterall, I'm the one totally not putting any effort into the class when I've spent days after days asking the teacher for help on the same stuff and not getting it

3. English Research Project. Wow, did I pick a crappy project to do this on. How am I supposed to write 9 pages of bull about american pop culture icons that croaked before 40 and what drove them to death? Uhh...yeah...how do I spread 'They did too much heroin/did too much cocaine/drank too much' into 9 pages? Fluff, Alix! Fluff like the wind!

4. I'm moving this summer, whee! Where am I moving to? I don't know yet! House is already sold, not moving out until...what month, mom? August!? What the hell, so theres no way to tell if I can stay at my school next year? No? Lovely.

5. Stalkers. Seriously, it's not cool to follow someone close enough that they can feel your e-breath on their e-necks. Thx.

6. Oh, yay, Alix! You're smart enough to be part of the National Technical Honours Society! But wait! You don't have a job nor the $100 membership fee. You lose. Nocoolstuffforcollegefoyou. Oh right, you're staying back anyway! Not like that matters.

7. Facebook chat bar thing at the bottom? Yeah, sure. It's cool. You don't need to have actual facebook working if you can open a crappy little chat with your friends. Who cares if it crashes your laptop?

8. VISTA. Oh my god, I hate this laptop. Beyond all human reason. Four times in a month it has done 100% complete memory dumps. Insert Windows Vista installation CD into E: drive and reinstall everything THANKS! NOT LIKE YOU NEEDED THOSE FEW PAGES AND ALL OF THE PAPERWORK AND RESEARCH OF THAT 9 PAGE ENGLISH PROJECT ANYWAY!!!1!!