With a fiance? I sure hope not!

That flyer was for a high school performance.

Well, you can be 18 and still be in High School. For that matter, you don't have to be any legal age to get engaged... and some folks do get married right out of High School.

Her engagement isn't the reason I pointed out the possibility of her being in high school. If she's still in high school, there are a variety of things in place to help her out, some of them even legally mandatory. If she's been abused, it's rather important that she not only find help for her emotional state, but also let responsible adults who are close to her know what's happened. Telling US is doing nothing. At all.

If this is really as serious as she wants us to believe, then she seriously needs some help, and not the kind of help you get on Lusternia's forums.

17 years old, in High School.

T__T I want out.

oi!

What?

Did I sound older?

I hope you didn't think I was... like... 28 or something...

I thought you were 19 or in your early 20s. Those 2-6 years make a huge difference.

I take back everything I said.

Instead, I suggest getting involved in something that they call "bigger than yourself."

Join clubs or groups or organizations and become friends with the people who you connect to in those things. The larger the variety of ages in the group you join, the more likely you will be able to find the type of people you like the best. (my wife and I both found out in high school that we enjoyed being around people older than ourselves, or around little children. Ironically we are only a few months apart ourselves. We also didn't meat each other until well into College.)

I have a neice and nephew who I love to be around. I'm planning on becoming a Special Education Teacher for Elementary School.

Needless to say, I love little kids. But, unfortunately, I don't have time for clubs and that jazz (yet) because my stepdad insists that I always be home.

I'm still going to get those books.

If I could join groups... I'd probably join...

The Big Brother/Sister group/club
Knitters Anonymous (group in my area)

:/ My stepdad said no.

... I feel like I'm being treated like I'm ten...

I have talked with "responsible" adults before on the matter. I tried my family. First my brother Jorge...

... he was sent to jail for Drug Dealing, so there went moving in with him.

Then I tried my Uncle Johnny...

... and he went to jail for being a pedophile three days later.

Then I tried ACS. I was told I would be better off staying with my stepdad, even if anything was actually happening.

So here I am.

Sorry, Myrkr, I think that this thread is an obvious cry for help, and, being a high school teacher myself, I know what I would do if I heard this kind of stuff from a student of mine.

Have you spoken with any of your teachers? Your definition of "a responsible adult" seems to be slightly skewed. Have you spoken with your guidance counselor? Do any of those people know about the abuse you faced as a child? Do any of them know that your stepdad doesn't permit you to take place in school-sponsored activities?

You seem to ignoring the fact that no one here on the Lusternia forums can help you. You aren't going to get help here. You can complain here, and put yourself down here, and talk about how you wish your life was different here, but none of that changes anything.

I am not "treating you like you are ten," but you are obviously handling your situation with that level of maturity. You need help. You need to find someone close to you who can help. This isn't going to go away by itself.

Perhaps my methods of dealing with this are like that of a ten year old. But that's the only way I know to deal with it.

I have talked with my teachers about it. I've talked to school counselors, psychiatrists, psychologists, and therapists. I've talked to the Administration of Children Services. What I am told by the first group is that, "There's nothing wrong with you, it is your family who should be in therapy instead." My stepdad refuses group therapy, so that's out.

ACS (Administration of Children Services) said that while things were bad, I'm better off just waiting out till I'm 18. Which is what I'm doing. I'm waiting till I graduate highschool to move out.

I know this isn't going to go away by itself. If I thought it would, I wouldn't have gone to anyone at all. I wouldn't be posting on here at all. I'd do what I used to do, and just go in a corner and cry.

If the people whose jobs it is to help me won't help me, then what choice do I have but to find a new venue for help? If people who traditionally are supposed to help me won't talk to me or make my situation more difficult, what choice do I have but to look to people who I RP with for 25 hours a week for help?

Welcome to NYC. ACS doesn't work. That's why Nixzmary Brown died.

All I can do is wait for the day I can graduate.

For now, I'd like to be able to go through highschool, my last year, with a semblance of normalcy.

I'd like to be able to have friends to talk to.

That's why I'm asking for help, and what I'm asking for help on, because, for now, there is nothing else I can do.