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under beauty's gaze by Tacita
Merit for February 2014
i took the fire in my heart and turned it to crystal, shattering
the last breath of His love falling to make us all, shards
of memory that no longer remain. i wanted to know that pain,
the mutual sacrifice of an eternity forgetting one another.
i cannot imagine a world in which i watched their hearts splinter,
even if mine were pierced by the shards like knives.
it was a selfish act to make it, weakness manifest, and yet -
and yet I woke from slumber with this reflection in my hand,
one-eyed seal seeing all, the clutches of destruction reaching
towards me in anger, longing to taste my soul. i remember
the pale rays of light that claimed them before and again,
remember the calm of harmony and know the pain of beauty.
who knew that a single eye could weigh so heavily upon my soul.
its gaze was nothing, but the looks of others were as lead,
demanding and expecting. i am not the answer that they seek,
they ask the wrong question of me; i am too many things
to become more of myself. this shall not ground me.
my destiny is to be one with the Wyrd and none shall stop me.
this is what i feel, what i remember every time his arms reach for me
consuming, devouring: your face as the power of a dozen realities
began to be absorbed into my second heart. your understanding
as the world denied you existence and sent you into nothingness.
time devoured you as the soulless king would take me,
leaving only the memories of what could have been and cannot be.
and still i fear they will ask me the question that is meant for another -
but my destiny is to be one with the Wyrd and none shall stop me.
