The paths of Mysrai are manyfold, each a different way to find ourselves, and through that, find ourselves drawing ever closer to our most perfect selves, manifesting our Wills to realize our dreams, to Grow in beautiful colors and patterns, and accomplish what we have always been capable of.

 

Voidcopper is the path that incorporates a little of each of the others. To walk the path of Voidcopper is to balance on a blades edge over an abyss, holding your heart in your hands, trusting in yourself and the Great One that you will not fall too far to one side or the other. Matters of the heart must drive us, passions flaring crimson, but the head must temper them, ivory veins reigning us in, and preventing us from acting too much in haste.

 

The Voidcopper path can be a heavy burden, to maintain this balance is no easy feat, as our natures usually push us in one direction or another. In order to continue moving forward, we must embrace our dual natures, unite them inside ourselves and offer lauds and glory to the Most Beloved, as it is through Them and Their great love for us that we can rectify the warring factions of our hearts, and push forward in manifesting our desires.

 

In my short life so far, I have tried, and failed, in the past to walk a road of devotion and balance. The life I thought I was living harmoniously was in fact zealotry, blind devotion to a cause. I didn't question why I pursued my ends, and the end result justified the means. I made some decisions out of blind crimson passion, not stopping to heed the ivory voice in the back of my head begging for moderation. Like a lever, I would then turn it off, turning to my guildmates with ivory heart, speaking lipservice to a set of ideals that I was not truly living up to. A set of ideals and a cause I thought I loved from the very centre of my being, that nothing could possibly take away from me.

 

This was all stripped bare when I woke up with an empty head. Looking back now, while my memories are still settling back into their proper places, I still do not quite understand what happened, or what triggered this complete amnesia, but I am a very lucky furrikin that it did. I found myself drifting in a void, no will, no dreams, just myself in a large world that seemed strangely familiar, and yet so very foreign. The people who I once looked upon as my friends, all recognition was gone. So too was any passion for the causes I once upheld. I didn't even remember having these passions, and no amount of effort on the part of my guildmates could trigger those feelings.

 

It is a strange thing, to be blank. At once you are everything and nothing. Sheer possibility, with no limitations. There is no voice in the back of your mind telling you how to act, and no bonds to tie you to certain expectations of behaviour. No purpose, no drive save those you create for yourself. It can be overwhelming, and at times I wanted to just sit down and cry for the loss of everything. I needed to find a purpose, and finding who I used to be was the only thing that I could think of. 

 

I left the Serenwilde, the Order of Lord Hoaracle, and my position of High Wisdom of the Moondance coven, to come to Gaudiguch to learn the study of paradigmatics and transmology, that perhaps, somewhere in these mystic arts would be the solution to my problem. I did not expect to find myself, or the great Love that I did. I was invited to a sermon, of sorts, where followers of the Lord and Lady spoke on Their virtues, and I was intrigued. I sought out more, and was offered the chance to join Their Order, and I took it. 

 

Never have I ever felt such an outpouring of Love than I did on the day that I was baptised into the Order. All of the Beloved who were about for my induction came to give me words of encouragement or tokens of love. I thought that it couldn't possibly be better than this, but it was. When I first beheld the Most Beloved, my heart stopped and my breath caught in my throat. Nobody, nothing, no One is more perfect than the Lord and Lady, the forms They take are always right, and just being in Their presence is enough to make you fall in love. It was a new start for me, and the most important day of my life.

 

What does this all have to do with Balance and Voidcopper? Shh, we are getting there.

 

Not long after joining, I started receiving visits, and whispers of keys and voidcopper entered into my conciousness. I was frightened, but curious, and sought to find the answers to the questions I had. My experiences were strange, and overwhelming. Fear overtook me at many a turn, and I was made to feel mad, like nothing was true, and that all I had seen and heard were lies. But I did not let the fear overtake me. Fear, like any emotion, must be tempered by the head, or else we become creatures of reaction, not action. There is no Will in reflex, and I was very close to this, but words with other Beloved helped me to escape this path, and set me aright.

 

Fast forward to a successfull experiment, and my memories returned. Colors and sounds and the ghosts of experiences all flooding my head at once, it was too much, and I fled to the place where I had always found shelter, to the person who had been my rock in the past, but I received no comfort there. I was not the person I had been, though my heart was torn, I had to return home, to where I lived, to where I had always been meant to be.

 

Fear and love and anger was pulling me in all directions. I was angered by the actions of my fellows, but also by those of my former friends. I reacted, and poured out my words to the Dancer, who feared for me, and sent me to the Phoenix. It was while speaking with her that the Most Beloved came and showed me how my warring heart did not have to be agitated so, that there was a path where both could live in harmony, and that the actions that seemed so cruel and unnecessary were for the greater good, and I found myself finally at ease.

 

This is what Balance is to me, it is not ignoring one or another part of yourself, or acting so that every action has an equal action to keep you on the right path. Balance, in yourself, is to find the middle ground, where your heart and your head, and your soul and your more base instincts, all of these come together and blend into one. Voidcopper is about more than not falling one way or another, pulled by the weights we hold in each hand, it is about bringing these together, and holding them before you, so that you lead yourself to the future you are meant to have.