If you're anything like me (I sincerely hope you're nothing like me. It is for your own good.), I just can't connect with people in person. I hide a lot of things from people I know in person (that all of you know since I'm open about it here) since you can't connect the words to a face. Or, if I really trust you, you get other ways to contact me. So I have a few groups of e-friends.

I'm the same in the lot of ways, except I'm not sure I'll ever be able to interact with people IRL normally, especially not right now in high school, in one of the most superficial towns I've ever seen.

I'm worse. TRUST ME.

Bug and fast and legs and creepy and eeeeeeeeeeeee

Turns out Apollodorus most likely has retinal degeneration behind his cataracts. Both traits are inherited in his breed and all signs point to the double-whammy, rather than the relatively easy-to-fix cataract problem. I could get a $350 test for retinal degeneration, but it will most likely just confirm that he can't be fixed.

being violently ill and not knowing why.

I make a selfish decision to finally break myself from hurt. I knew I was bound to hurt the person directly connected with my decision. I didn't know patching up past things would add more people to the list. For the past weeks, I did not shed a single tear for what happened..and now I'm pushed to do just that. Heck, just when I only have my pillow to cry on.

I'm also fearing that I might lose the people I've come to care about because of everything that's happening.

And it's so ironic because my decision was supposed to make me feel light and happy.

-hug- You just... have to do what's best for you in the end.

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I spent most of today reinstalling my computer. ' It still refuses to fully install Windows. (So if any super nerds out there would like a challenge, I've got one.)

On the plus side, back up and running under Ubuntu and just waiting for the update to complete before I install Mudlet.

My iTunes is all kind of messed up. Apparently I can't update or even uninstall it without some .msi file, which is mysteriously missing.

For want of a more appropriate place to do this...Azula is telling me she can't get on the forums because Shuyin's gif signature is crashing her browser...I have no idea how old a version of netscape she's on for that to be happening, but if anyone has any ideas feel free to message her.

I have one. Tell her to disable sigs. PROBLEM SOLVED.

My Controls > Board Settings > Do you wish to view members signatures when reading topics?

I think I just adblocked it.

Far too warm today.

Far too cold over here.

No such thing.

Not on Earth, at least.

But my house was juuuuuuuust right.

Even before the page had loaded I knew this was what you said.

Got my first official preggonaut stretch mark at the start of my last month. Kind of sucks, was hopeful that I wouldn't end up with any. Furthermore, LILIJA HATE MACS! Fixing them all day and then having them stop being fixed after fixing them is the pits. And a waste of time.

My computer has been randomly locking up all night, although it seems to have subsided for now. Problems that randomly begin for no apparent reason drive me nuts.