I honestly don't know what to say to that, cause I'm not any sort of professional, but... well... 
Thanx Noola, any sort of reply is fine, I'm just not feeling all there tonight. Heh, professionals. All THEY have guaranteed me is difficulty in working in my dream job (CERN supercolider) unless I can get the one official attempt removed from my medical record. woot 
In my job application, should I put "ambition to blow up the world since age 14" or not? Ahh yes, there we go, absurdity challenges the nihilistic and reduces my negative emotions to a collection of meaningless platitudes and weightless statements. Only had to wait it out. I think, I may attempt to sleep now and wake up with a less charged outlook.
Sorry everyone, I've been struggling with depression again the last 9 months. It is occassionally besting me, again.
In my job application, should I put "ambition to blow up the world since age 14" or not? Ahh yes, there we go, absurdity challenges the nihilistic and reduces my negative emotions to a collection of meaningless platitudes and weightless statements. Only had to wait it out. I think, I may attempt to sleep now and wake up with a less charged outlook.Sorry everyone, I've been struggling with depression again the last 9 months. It is occassionally besting me, again.
QUOTE (caffrey @ Jun 18 2010, 08:32 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
Thanx Noola, any sort of reply is fine, I'm just not feeling all there tonight. Heh, professionals. All THEY have guaranteed me is difficulty in working in my dream job (CERN supercolider) unless I can get the one official attempt removed from my medical record. woot In my job application, should I put "ambition to blow up the world since age 14" or not? Ahh yes, there we go, absurdity challenges the nihilistic and reduces my negative emotions to a collection of meaningless platitudes and weightless statements. Only had to wait it out. I think, I may attempt to sleep now and wake up with a less charged outlook.
Sorry everyone, I've struggling with depression again the last 9 months. It is occassionally besting me, again.
In my job application, should I put "ambition to blow up the world since age 14" or not? Ahh yes, there we go, absurdity challenges the nihilistic and reduces my negative emotions to a collection of meaningless platitudes and weightless statements. Only had to wait it out. I think, I may attempt to sleep now and wake up with a less charged outlook.Sorry everyone, I've struggling with depression again the last 9 months. It is occassionally besting me, again.
Hey, most people in the world have depression at some point or another, we know what you're going through. We just want to see you well.
What would we do without map updates? 
QUOTE (caffrey @ Jun 18 2010, 05:07 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
heh, tried to kill myself 5 times between July 2000 and July 2003. Odd how suicidal depression never really goes away. Lurking in the background like an insidious wallpaper seeping into the desktop icons of life like an overzealous dye. I've done so well for over 5 years, but it's always been there and right now I want to die. How liberating is it to know what will grant you freedom, while acknowledging at the same time the shackles of human timidity and the denial of the means to that freedom? Yet ironically it's the fear of pain that denies me freedom from pain just as it always has done. Just as ironically, this very post will contribute towards the widening of the interpersonal distance that contributes toward my emotional isolation even as it reaches out vainly in a pathetic attempt to bridge that self same gap. Ohhh life, how you mock me. Let me not be.
The relief you seek is a feeling. You have to be alive to feel it; you won't feel it if you are dead.
You most likely realize that, but please keep it in mind. And you never have to carry this kind of emotional burden alone.
Wanna borrow my chainsaw?
(Though it won't help, I only have an electric.)
(Though it won't help, I only have an electric.)
QUOTE (Lendren @ Jun 20 2010, 02:29 AM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
Wanna borrow my chainsaw?
(Though it won't help, I only have an electric.)
(Though it won't help, I only have an electric.)
You're totally screwed when the Zombie Apocalypse arrives.
QUOTE (AllergictoSabres @ Jun 19 2010, 09:35 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
You're totally screwed when the Zombie Apocalypse arrives.
Just get a generator with wheels, drag it along behind you.
Also, Meliana should get a generator. Last time our power went out, we started up the generator so we wouldn't miss survivor.
QUOTE (AllergictoSabres @ Jun 20 2010, 02:00 AM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
You have eight entry points - most of them glass - and you don't own a firearm? Man... I must be more paranoid than I thought.
My thoughts exactly but that is just the military tactician coming out of me.
Andddd you'd probably would have a firearm holstered under or with-in arms reach of every two entry points
I have had a headache literally all day long.
